first comes love

then comes marriage!! we're engaged!

if only fools fall in love...

.....then i must be a pretty big one.

.....but i am also one of the happiest people alive......

..........and a terribly lucky girl........

....because life feels like love, everyday, all the time.

I love you Cole. xoxoxo, Miss Megan

to do list

~as of 10PM on 10/20/09.........

* practice, study and pass NNAAP (National Nurse Aide Assessment Program) test on Saturday.
*work at eye center, monday-friday
*workout four times between now and this Saturday evening.
*prepare meals for the next day
*pack for weekend w/ wuver cole.man. in LA for 10/30 -- 11/2
*possibly babysit Saturday night
*workout 4 - 5 X following week
*scriptures and spiritual study, everyday.
*buy a special cord i'm missing for my bulk USB port to work and my computer can stop having anxiety attacks about low disc space.
*toastmasters: write a speech to give in two weeks, practice, esp in speech therapy
*update and up-hip blog.
*recolor hair, bleach teeth (eg: weekend wiff wuver man)
*actively control and creatively direct energy and lust for new clothes and boots into one new pair of jeans.
*start hinting and suggesting to parents that all i need for christmas is a killer pair of low-heeled, leather boots.
*stalk postmen in case my blue beehive wig doesn't arrive in WA in time for me to wear to the office on 10/30, buy backup plan at Walmart. actively restrict and direct energy and lust for crazy costume eyelashes into one other pair.
*dinner with h.s. b.f. kerri next thursday. bring side dish to share and something that will make her little boys love me like some halloween crafty things at the dollar store.
*oh yeah. eat.

and lastly......dum duh DA!!!!!!!!

*upload this song unto itunes and share with amigos, amis, and pung-yos:

i'm so friggin' happy i could pop

it's been awhile since i've posted. there are several good reasons for that.  my life has taken a lot of twists and turns the past few months, but i feel that my life is in a very good place currently.

since my last post, i've gone through a torrent in regards to employment. back in may, i was hired as a preschool teacher at an early intervention center. the plan was for the center to open in either late june or early july. well, after several stressful delays, the center finally opened the last week of july. it was stressful for me, and all involved, as i watched my savings deplete and actively went between deciding if i should find new work or just hold on until the center opened. i was very tense and anxious for several weeks and even had a panic attack after a job interview which turned out to be a sales position, and i realized this in the middle of the interview.

finally, i was good to go as a teacher at the early intervention preschool. i was excited about the job and worked hard to conceal the anxiety i had felt towards the job and the company for the past several weeks. i did what i thought was the best i could do, given the directions i had been given and the expectations of the company. i didn't even finish out a full two weeks when i was fired. they weren't pleased with the way i lead classroom activities and some of the safety guidelines were not being followed carefully enough, they said.

yikes.

but this post is not about struggle. this post is about triumph. a few weeks later, i started an intensive 3-week course towards becoming a certified nursing assistant. though science is not my strong point, i knew that cna's were in demand, and the opportunity to get a lot of hours were possible. after a challenging three weeks for me, i completed the course successfully. my last day of class, i was offered a job with the eye center company that my youngest brother worked for as a records clerk. the pay and the hours are the same as the preschool job, and the commute is much better, and i have more confidence in the company.

i'm very happy. i'm happy to have this job, i'm happy to have completed my cna course. i'm happy to be with my boyfriend, cole, who i'm currently visiting in los angeles. he makes me very happy and smiley. i'm very grateful for the aid that heavenly father, my family and my friends have given me the past few months to help sustain me through this period of dry employment. life feels very delicious.

love you all.

xo, megs. 

i recently had my 25th birthday. my friends, with whom i made a short film for a ysa film contest, helped make it special.

we've become a little family, these friends and i, and i'm really grateful for their company. i'm also grateful for the friendship and attention of a friend whose charms have nursed a serious crush, and it's all i can do to not jeapordize my safety or standing with the law to get to los angeles. had i not been so ill this 4th of july, i would have spent it working a fair if one of those stands would have had me, or walked around dressed as cupid with a donation jar and a shirt saying "donations for a heartsick fool to see her crush" or something like that.

but anyway.

it's their friendships that has helped make life sweet and enjoyable, as the job situation is nothing short of aggravating. i was offered employment at an early intervention center as a teacher for a year, but as the place is just opening and the development is very raw, the opening has been delayed for over a month. worse things have happened in the grand scheme of employment, but to someone who is trying to make some major decisions on returning to school, paying off the *%#@ credit card, etc, etc, etc, a month makes a pretty big difference.

i'm 25 and it's probably time to get serious about this career stuff. and that's what i'm doing. i just need a few months of income from full-time work to get this debt behind me, and then i'm moving forward with educational pursuits.


i'm also figuring that it's time for me to do some major physical feat as well, like running a marathon or something like that. the idea of running that much isn't that appealing, so we'll have to figure something out that's equally monumental but a little more enjoyable for me than running that much. any suggestions????

the things i know

1. i don't know what kind of job i want that will help me get to the next phase of life.

2. i'm lonely. send me a date, please.

3. about $600 is all i need to pay off a damn credit card.

4. utah isn't looking so bad again. can i live there???

team budget.

the problem with a budget is that it just isn't sexy enough.

that's why our economy is in the pits, folks. because our public view of team budget is of the sickly-pale, 90-lbs weaklings that play with Eewok figurines instead of friends.

team credit, on the other hand, is full of glamorous and dramatic people like, i'm guessing, lindsey lohan, paris hilton, snoop dogg, wesley snipes. people who are dramatic and glamorous and, yes, also very messy in terms of a public view.

we need budgets, or at least people who budget, who have ripped abs, designer clothes, and fake tans. or at least someone with a presence and a commanding voice. like dave ramsey! or... the new boss on "the office." right??